The first few ....

The first three months is kind of a blur now. I was so excited to bring Addison home from the hospital. I remember thinking, " Do they really trust me to keep this baby alive?" Being home with a brand new baby is wayyyyy different than being in the hospital with all the help around. Being raised in a daycare I was pretty sure I knew everything about babies and that this would be a breeze. Ha! Boy was I wrong. The first night home was great. She woke every couple hours, nursed perfectly, and just mostly slept. The next night though was not so great to say the least. Addy had her days and nights mixed up and for about 6 hours straight we had a crying baby that would not sleep. This went on for a couple of weeks. What new born is even up for 6 hours straight?! She hated the cradle, the bassinet, and the pack and play. Finally, I went into survival mode and I popped that baby in the bed with me. We both slept amazing!!!! Thank God because all those sleepless nights led to my random crying sessions from exhaustion. Abe would go through the check list that he had written down in our baby care classes (what a waste those were lol) on postpartum depression. I would look at him with tears in my eyes and say, "I don't have postpartum because I really love our baby, I'm just really tired" We still laugh at that. Everyone says you have no idea what it's like to have a baby and boy is that and understatement! After a couple weeks of co-sleeping the baby started getting restless in bed and I decided to try the new rock and play we had picked up and Hallelujah the kid slept for 5 hours straight and continued to pretty much sleep well every night. The point of this whole story is that I have learned to go with your gut instinct. Everyone warned me not to sleep with the baby telling me horror stories on how we would never sleep in our bed alone EVER again. We slept perfectly and after a few weeks the baby had decided she didn't need that anymore. So do what you feel in your heart is the right thing and forget everything that everyone else says.